sweathog

Okay SERIOUSLY!!!! It's fucking November 30th and I have to turn my air conditioner on????!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!? I am sitting here in a tank top and shorts next to a christmas wreath, sweating. I am so close to snapping.

I have to turn in a form tomorrow that says how I'd like my name to appear on the diploma I'm getting this may. I'm graduating. This. May. Where the hell did that come from? How the hell is it going to happen considering I don't even have a formal experiment design for my thesis? I'm going to be a very busy bee this winter... not that this is a winter in anything other than name. Fucking 84 degrees. GAH!!!!

crossing the great waters

My new favorite fortune: "You will soon be crossing the great waters." At first it sounds nice, what with my penchant for the sea and all, but after reflection it sounds a bit like, "you're going to die soon!" That's right, backhanded slap from a cookie!

Queen of the Dorks

I'm digging through my jewelry box... right now I'm wearing my eyeball ring, a tiara, and one clip-on earring. Oh yeah. Stylin.

Knotted wrack

I have always had a short attention span. I take a hobby up for either 3 months or 3 years, but when I'm done, I'm done. As much as I say I'd like to play guitar again I never go for more than a few days. I worry that's happened with my career... now that I'm here, actually doing it, it doesn't arouse my interest. Then again, I can't really say I'm interested in anything. I have no passion. I am completely disconnected from my life - not inputting anything or directing it in any way. Everything washes over me, I bend with the rush, and I go wherever the current takes me. A while back, I decided to go with it. I would recognize my faults for what they were and embrace them. I would work with myself, not against myself. It seemed like a good idea at the time, but I've hit a wall and I don't want to be this person anymore. I need to look at things from a different angle, swim against the current.

osmosis

I fell asleep on my O-Chem books last night. Maybe I can learn it through osmosis!

You see the date up there? November 1st? WHY THE FUCK DO I NEED TO HAVE MY AIR CONDITIONING ON?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! It just shouldn't be this way. I'm having a generally bad day and the heat is pushing me over the edge. I want to sit in a cold bath and read travel memoirs... instead I'm sweating (both literally and figuratively) over my stupid test tomorrow. Gah.